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Where’s the Bitch?

Which came first: the anger or the Bitch? The Bitch started to move in during the muddle of middle school. My mother groomed her. First, she was a frustrated teen: pushing, hiding, wisecracking, seething and getting by. That’s the girl who needed the theatre so much, who was afraid to speak and wanted someone else [...]

Oh, You Rogue!

You can teach an old car new tricks. When I moved to Portland, I bought my first car: a perfect green Rambler Rogue. I paid $1000 for a car that ran almost perfectly for years and worried that I likely overpaid. I spoiled her faded, matronly body, by plunging it into a small yellow truck [...]

Alone

Alone is a common way to be when you’re an only child. So common I stopped noticing that other people were usually in groups. So common I didn’t bother to learn how to share myself with others. Physical needs, those could be dispatched in hot-blooded bedrooms and backseats. Social needs were fulfilled in parties and [...]

October 24 is 350 Day

Today is 350 day. Where?  All over the world there are creative actions. Find one near you and participate. 350 what? If atmospheric concentrations of CO2 remain above 350 parts per million, we face human and natural disaster. who?  You, me, all of us. Why? In December in Copenhagen the world’s nations meet to agree [...]

Living in the Moment

My Mother has been slipping further into the fog of dementia for a long time now. This is a Mother’s Day greeting.  You can read the whole post here.

The Stutthof: a question and an answer

I traveled thousands of miles to stand here in the snow and the cold where my Grandmother and her younger daughter, Eva, found one another in 1944, after eighteen months of heartbreaking separation, amongst thousands of women penned by barbed wire into two groups, awaiting role call.

Mad Dog

Sometimes we run around like a chicken with it’s head cut off–sometimes like a mad dog. What an animal! Mad Dog revisited.

My Family–Enough Already!

I’m done with my family. I don’t mean to be cruel, mind you. I just need to be free for a bit. I’ve earned it. They’ve been taking up an extraordinary amount of my bandwidth, what with the usual proving myself good and worthy, writing and performing pieces of them, and feeling haunted by the [...]

Divorce

It seems like a common word until it starts to describe your life.